I don't do New Year's resolutions. I find them unsustainable. However, it does feel important to book end this year and draw a line under it. I've had a lot of 'worst years of my life' but 2018 seems like it definitely ranks in the top 5! Marital abuse, severe health issues, passive suicide attempt, … Continue reading Intentions, Words & Hopes
I seem to be posting here about once a month at the moment. I was aiming for once a week but once a month will do, I guess. Last night, in my new house I had another of my existential crises. I call them that because that's the only way I can describe them. Nothing … Continue reading Engulfment
I've been absent from here for some time. I've largely given up on self-care. I can't do anything special. Sometimes all I can do is hang on by my fingernails and hope nobody notices that my kids are eating out of tins, my hair is unwashed, my teeth unbrushed, the kids homework has not been … Continue reading Loneliness, illness and lots of other ‘Ness-ness’
Just had a 15 minute nap. I dreamt I arrived at my therapist's house (odd since I always had therapy at her office) and she'd told me to use whichever door I wanted. So, because I parked nearer her back door, I used her back entrance. I felt somewhat odd, I'd been told I could … Continue reading Therapy dreaming*
Yesterday was an awful day. I barely slept Saturday night. Managed about 2hrs and woke up feeling like death. Headachy, extremely low energy, body like lead. I was in PJs for most of the day. I did some ironing and ironed on name labels for the boys. That was about it though. In the morning … Continue reading Self-care day 5/222 – foot peels
https://wp.me/p6PMPh-1S4 I keep seeing these #whatif prompts and this one grabbed my attention. Right now... my ideal home is really any home. A little 2 bed place with a small garden, room enough for a cat and my office stuff. I don't care as long as my kids and I are no longer sofa surfing … Continue reading A #whatif prompt: My ideal home!
I want to email her so badly!!!! I CAN'T HELP IT!!! I'm desperate to. I want to cry so much and tell her I made a huge mistake and can I please come back on Tuesday after all? I want her back! I want to know I'm going back on Tuesday. I can't take this! … Continue reading drowning*